Do I Want Confusion?

Ugh this is so lame. Every time I try not to think of the new guy, I think of him! But this time in my dreams.. I had a bunch of random dreams with in each other, but that one dream was he was with Selena Gomez.. In bed with her.. And  I see this and get very jealous.. Then I try to win him back even though he was never mine to begin with.

Now outside of this dream.. I am trying this new thing called, It's good to be single! But every time I think about him..I want him to be mine.. Why is this? I am chasing someone that I think does not want to be chased.. I don't know. The girls are the ones that have to be chased. Play hard to get and all that jazz. Someone give me an answer please!

P.S. He has the most amazing blue-green eyes.. I think they are blue and have yellow around the pupil.. But yeah.. *Sigh* :P

Why Not?

As the t.v. is on besides me I sit here wondering about nothing and everything. My mother watching the news- the cats on her sleeping- they seem so peaceful in this home. Finishing these images take a lot of time, but in the end it is all too worth it to make them shine. And as my mind derails more and more, I am finding myself falling for a stranger  I once knew so long ago.  So many sentences that make sense and at the same time does not. I don't know why I'm here.. Why this earth needs me.. Why i believe in certain things, read the books that i do, watch the movies that I see, like and dislike the things I do-see-feel-be.. Why am I here? I have been asking why lately and quite frankly I want to be done asking why and just do. Ask why not instead. What do you think world? Am I ready to be daring yet? I hope so.

So my plans for today.. 


-Going to see Michelle & she ill help me with some homework
-Going to Nutter's with a new guy Rick... Although I have actually met him oh so long ago.. Back let's say 10 years ago! Or so.. We went to tennis camp together. So strange that I meet up with him again!
-And lastly going to my summer english class. Working on Research papers
-And edit more Wedding photographs
-And clean my messy room
-And dance and sing by myself
-And come up with more random things to say on this blog
-And drink chocolate soy milk and eat my eggs while thinking of saying my ABC's backwards in my own very head
-And listen to the television play tennis while my brother lays on the couch while Kiska is on him sleeping once again. 


That is all :)

More Horrible News and How to Fix the Problem

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http://www.humanesociety.org/animals/cows/

Cruelty to Pigs.. Stop the Violence Now

Oh my.. Look what others are doing to these poor helpless pigs. This is so horrible! Why do we not stop animal violence!? Watch this video and see what they do. This is so crude and not part of animal nature. I want to punish these horrible people! Don't you?

http://www.humanesociety.org/issues/campaigns/factory_farming/

I cried watching this video. This is only one of many animals that are abused every second of every day. I found this video searching for topics to write for a research paper. I'm glad I  found this though, because I am gaining knowledge about this horrible world we live in.