I Just Want To Be A Child Again

I am tired of being 30 and having so many things wrong with me. Sick for two and a half months. A different cold each time. My rib being dislocated so it hurts when i get up or lay down or laugh or blow my nose or cough. I have something wrong with my bowels. It hurts every time I go take a shit. Like glass shards. I recently found out I now have gum disease. So my teeth are going to fall out because my gums are receding and it costs $1000 out of pocket to fix it. Thanks Medicaid. I haven't worked in a month and now i owe money for car insurance and i have to pay Mr. Greg back but haven't been able to do that because-sick. I now have a cell phone bill to pay for as well and Amazon Music oh and this random amazon free time for $5 that I don't know where that came from. And my butt is starting to sag and I have thunder thighs and I want to go to the gym but don't have the money or the will power to do it because I am lazy according to my family aka Alex and Serge. You'd think family are supposed to support and encourage you but they don't. They just shit on my parade when I'm already down. I'd rather just drink and quit my work and give back the car than to feel depressed all the time and complain about everything as   I feel like I'm doing all the time these days and I'm sick and tired of doing. Oh and also this cyst or whatever is on top of my head won't go away and is red and hurts and I'm just so done with my fucking miserable feeling life.